A Whole New World

It has been beyond time, years, since either of us has posted here. I do not know if anyone even remembers this place...or if sundara does. One can only hope. She has been gone for so long. If she sees this, I hope she will find a way to contact me.

An honest apology

many of you if there are any left, may have noticed that this one hasn't been posting much lately. since the trip to California to be exact. this life has changed rather drastically. always one to reflect on things and life, this one hasn't had much time to devoted to the online electronic world. this one has been giving herself offline, to real life friends, family, and most importantly to a man that this one has fallen in love with. this one has had few opportunities to communicate with Master Dafyd, but as always He is most understanding of the demands of this one's life. this one has missed the openness this place gave to her and the way she could write her most intimate thoughts and feelings down. this one knows that didn't have to stop, but with most of her time being spent in the real world, the focus of this blog has left this one with little to comment about. this one still loves her Master and thinks the world of him.. this one loves the chances she gets to talk to him. for now.. thank you for being with this one during all her postings and the journey she is taking through this thing called life..

As you all may or may not know, my little one has gone on a trip. She's flying out to where her sister lives now and helping her sister move her family halfway across the country, driving one of their vehicles and perhaps visiting friends along the way. So she won't be back for a little while. In the mean time, you'll just have to make do with me. To be honest, I know I don't write much here, but I thought you all deserved *something*, since she's out, so here I am.

To be honest, I miss her too, though to perhaps a greater degree than all of you. I guess the only upside is being able to concentrate a little bit more during the day. Let's face it, my little slave is a distraction, but oh, what a wonderful, beautiful distraction she is! And I hope she agrees to keep distracting me for a long time, still!

It's tough not having her around, but I'm trying to keep myself busy to keep my mind off her not being here. I'm doing a little writing and trying to get myself back into composing music, though I'm having less than stellar luck with that.

Oh well, I guess I'll sign off for now. Not much to say since she's been gone just over a week now. I guess I'll leave the last thing for her: come back safe, my sweet little one. I miss you and can't wait to hear from you again.

okay he called.. we are going out tonight.. mmmm wheeeeee, must shower and get ready Master helped this one pick out an outfit to wear too!!! woo woo!!

he didn't call. just thought this one would let you all know.. *sigh* g'night.. better tomorrows..

today has been rather uneventful but it's nice that the work day is at least over. now this one is sitting here while Master continues to search the internet for music. it's honestly a little frustrating that He'd rather do that than talk to this one, and frankly it makes this one wonder how important she is to Him these days. but this one will be patient and just wait until He finds time for her. course this girl might be the only one doing any type of missing in regards to Him and us.

but on a better note, it is Wednesday, which means that Troy's kids go back to their mom. which also means that chances are very high this one will get a call from him tonight. this one would love to just go there and hug and snuggle. she needs a good cuddle. maybe watch a movie too. it would be fun. this one can hardly contain herself with wanting to hear from him, but she will control herself and she promises she won't be too disappointed if he decides not to call.

Ahh Master is back, have to go be with Him for a bit.

just got home from work and this one got to have a little time with Master. it was nice to see Him after so long and she always looks forward to the wonderful advice that he gives to her. this one is beat from due to her illness and isn't going to post much. maybe after napping she will. but having pumped herself full of painkillers and antibiotics today this one feels like she needs to give herself some real rest. the day is dreary again.. rainy and gross, but this one is going to snuggle up in her bed with 5 blankets on her, a pillow over her head to block out the light and enjoy her sleep most likely for only 3 hours this one knows herself and she isn't much of a napper but being sick lets her nap for about 3 hours in the afternoon. anyway, this one is rambling. hope everyone is having a nice week and this one will post more tonight if there is anything significant to post, if not, have a great hump day tomorrow!

this one woke up this morning to downpouring rain and all she could think of is ugh.. why does this one have to work today!! this one's throat was a little sore too and she figured it would just go away when she got up had somet breakfast and something to drink and just started her day. well she went to work and got drenched but work was nice. it felt good to be at a job again. but by 10:30, this one knew that she wasn't just having a sore throat day. she opened her mouth and yes, white spots on her tonsils and her throat is flaming red. well this one just started this job. there was no way she was leaving. so this one just stayed and got out of work about 30 minutes early so she could go to the health center. not good. this one either has strep or tonsilitis. the doctor didn't wait for the throat culture, just looked in her throat and said she wanted this girl on something ASAP. all this one knows is that besides feeling shivery last night she had no symptoms, but when she got into the health center, she had a fever of 101.2 degree's fahrenheit. which is getting rather high. so now this one is home and she has her medicine, but this one isn't going to take it until 11pm tonight, that way this one has a good 8 hr schedule of 11, 7, 3 to take her meds for the next 10 days. on a side note, this one also got birth control pills. she's not been on them since '97, but thought it would be better to be safe than sorry. so this one is going to go lay down and rest and she apologizes for being so rushed with her last 3 posts. she wanted to share her weekend and today with you, but now it's time for this one to just relax and not think. hope everyone had a wonderful Monday!